Entry 16, Influences

  I have been influenced by people ever since I was a little kid. Everyone gets influenced by something throughout their life. In my life, I have always tried to be something, either following the shadow of my father or trying to copy some older kid with what I use to think was considered "cool". People like my father and mother has a positive impact on me, I have in fact learn so much, and the reason why I am probably somewhat healthy, is because of them. They teach me alot of everyday life things rather than academic things. They tell me to be smart about your health and eat healthy. Because of them, I eat healthy everyday for dinner and breakfast. People like my friends would give me negative influences. I am not saying I don't like being with them, I love my friends, but I know, ever since I was a little boy, my friends would be my biggest negative influences. I never wanted to admit it, but I know that is true. When you are with friends, that is when you normally get in trouble, being caught by someone doing something bad, or breaking things and just everything that we do can turn out to go wrong. I am not saying I am the only influenced one, I influence others as well when it comes to negative impacts. I believe we all influence each other rather than only influenced by others and never influencing people.

Entry 7, Taking Risks

  There are alot of people that had came across my life, and took risks to help me achieve a certain goal. The most often and the most obvious one are my parents. They took risks for me when they decided to have another child after my sister. Risks such as the possibility of not being able to financially support two babies when my dad's career had yet stabilize. The risks of wasting alot of their time on taking care of a child rather than their hobbies, or something they loved. Instead of living a less pressureful life, my dad has to work harder just to keep all of us well fed. These are the types of sacrifices parents have to make for their children. These are the bigger risks and sacrifices people can actually take in life. In everyday life, everyone takes risks.  In life, everyday on the street you can see people taking risks or making sacrifices. For example, if you were driving, and you let a pedestrian go first, then you made a sacrifice of wasting your time. On the other hand if you were flying through the traffic on your moped, from car to car, buses to buses, then you are taking a risk, a very serious risk of risking your life. Even I make sacrifices, wether it is helping a group do more work than everyone else, or letting someone have the last piece of potato chips. I think for me, the biggest sacrifice, i will make, will be for family, and for love. Regardless of what risks and sacrifices I make, the biggest sacrifice I think, and a very respectable sacrifice, would be fighting to the death for your country. When you fight in a war and you die to save millions, you are making a huge sacrifice no one can ever measure up to. These sacrifices and risks are bigger and has a more serious effect to it. Life is full of risks, what is life without some intense, risky situations?

2011/5/8

 What a boring weekend. Actually it wasn't half as bad I guess. I atleast went out with friends and chilled rather than staying home playing tetris all day. This is like the new in thing right now with our school. Tetris. Its like tetris, but you can play with all your friends on facebook. I guess its pretty fun and pretty addicting. Considering everyone is playing it and everyone is playing it, even I am, which is weird because I don't normally play games. I guess it is just one of those things you can just play and not think while your at it. I like escaping into games like that, and movies like that. Makes me not have to deal with the problems I have in my life. That's why people go to movies right? To escape reality. That is why I hate movies that gives you endings with your imagination. Which means there is no ending, you have to use your imagination to figure it out, it could end in everysingle way. I hate movies like that. Going to sleep peace.

2011/5/5

 What a boring day. It is always Thursdays when I can slack off from the week. It is always wendesdays and Mondays that are a pain in the neck. Especially being in Spanish class 3 hours a week. God that kills me. I have to film for my history project which is due in exactly a week. I really really don't want to do this. This is so stupid for me, I hate doing the group projects like this when it is almost towards the end of the year. By the way there is this tea I really like since like 6 months ago. It is so good and after we got it in the stuco store, everyone loves it haha. I like seeing people liking things I like so I wont feel as if I were some freak. Hey I like sugar free tea okay, its good for me and its tasty. Blogs are getting harder and harder to write everyday. I am running out of things to complain and things to say. My days and weeks are always so normal. I am just an average teenager. What else could I be saying about everything? Right? I mean what is interesting in my life? Peace. Going to bed.

2011/5/4

 Today was the last day Ms.Alison was with us. I will probably not see her for a good few years. I am actually kind of bummed about that. The dinner was pretty good, that little French Resturant in that alley way going up the slope next to Guang Fu. That was some pretty bomb ass food they served there. They had this rice thing, it was cheese and bacon put inbetween the rice and they make it into a dome shape thing, then they put it in the oven and heat up everything. Melting the cheese, burning the rice making it all crunchy and crispy on the outside. Oh my god, that was the best thing in the world. We had such a good time there singing for Ms.Alison. We also made a video for her saying all the things we feel for her. I did a very short one and I feel bad for it. I was actually decently close with Ms.Alison. Not as close as some people are with her, but decent, beyond average. Well I am bored right now so I think I will end the 101th post on this last note. Goodnight, peace.

2011/5/3

 Well this is my 100th post. Can you believe it? It has been 100 days since I started ranting on this blog. It has been 100 days, countless sweat and tears over my ex, countless minutes spent on typing entries. Can you believe it? Time is passing by so quickly and today is our last day of performing for Ms.Alison as a full dress rehearsal before she leaves for good. I am actually kind of bummed out about her leaving, I mean she is such an awesome and cool teacher, why does she have to leave? Why can't all the bad teachers leave and bring us more teachers like this. God I love her. I think the rehearsal went pretty decent today, only some people forgot some things and it is not my fault for all of it. I have to say, this play is actually getting sharpened up into something that is actually somewhat presentable. Never thought there would be a day like this. I am so proud of everyone and everyone in our cast. Stage crew to Orchestra, to all the members to the stage manager. Everyone, I am proud of all of you.

2011/5/2

 Today was mad crazy. Osama bin Laden dead? I believe that is just some United States government made up things to tell the citizens so they will be less uptight about the terrorists. As long as there is one person missing, they will never be able to sleep tightly. So I think there is no evidence that he is dead. Even though they have stated they will release the photo of him dead later on, right now there is absolutely no difference between them discovering him and killing him and not finding him at all. I am just saying how there is no hard evidence about his death, so what do we know? Well whatever, I hope there is nothing left of him if he is actually buried in the seafloor. So how was yourday? My day was okay, spent some time with friends like usual, ate some food with them, laxed with them. Living the life.

2011/5/1

 Wow first day of May. Quite cool how it is almost the end of the year and I have been continuing this long journey of journaling every night for the past half year. It is fun I have to admit, it is a time of the day I use to reflect on my day, my good and my bad of the day. This weekend I went back to Gao Shong. My grandma's big 70th, my family decided it would be good to spend it with her. Then I came back to hang out with a couple of my buddies. I hope this last four months goes by slower, as things are changing and god is begining to be at my side. See, keeping a positive mind, makes your future positive. That is how I believe it as. I actually need to think, Where is this going? Am I going to see her in a few years? Or is this just going down the drain? So how should I handle this as? I have kind of tired right now, I think I need to go to bed. Sorry for this terribly short entry. I promise I will make up. So how was your week? I am going to bed. peace.

2011/4/28

 Today was so exhausting. It was terrible how we had to practice for nine straight hours. But it was good, it was pretty decent how we put up with the play. Today we had a full dress rehersal though, we had to put on gel and stuff. It was super tiring and I wish I could quit right now. But I won't, quitters are losers who cannot deal with their problems. Sometimes I hate having to go through all this hassle just to put up with a show I am not even getting paid for. I mean I am not asking everything for a return, but something would be nice, and something could motivate me alot more. Today was a pretty good day, we had play rehersal all day long and I got back at nine. After I got back I finished all my homework and was just waiting for my mom to go to sleep, so I could eat some snacks or two. I don't even know what I am saying right now, I am too tired. Nights

2011/4/27

 Wow I seriously hate Mr. Jacoby. I am no longer going to hide my anger and hold back my thoughts. I don't give a rat's ass about your class. You are a terrible teacher, you have no lesson plans whatsoever everyday, we have blank pauses inbetween things just because of you. You have absolutely no right and certainly no ability to be a teacher. Teachers, set a role model for kids. And you drink and smoke? I don't care if you're depressed of you sad miserable life, if that is how all role models are suppose to be like, then I mind as well start drinking and smoking. Really? Throwing me into Williamson's office because of a plastic bottle?? Dude, what are you five? Get over it, its not like its the first time you realized I hate your class. Well okay, I have to be honest, the whole class hates you, not just me. I am just the one that expresses my feelings more often because I feel as if my parents pay two hundred thousand nt per semester just to send me into this school, I want to get everything out of it. Your no benefit for me and my classmates at all. You will get it one day, just think, end of this year, you will be fired. Believe me. Then after that, you can go drink your budweisers all you want, go back to to your Wisconsin you red neck. You say you are well educated, that doesn't make you a good teacher. You say all the things about college, well guess what? I am in ninth grade. Your words don't hurt me, your actions don't trip me. You will be the one losing. Watch me.

2011/4/26

 what a boring day.What an absolute boring day with absolutely nothing that came up that was interesting. Wow. I hate this place. I wish sometimes my life would just be more interesting, than this whole guys and dolls thing. I really hate this musical sometimes, changing this changing that, it all is the same to me. I am not going to be a pro dancer when I grow up, why try so hard? Why did I even join? Oh right it was for Vicki, that went down the drain, so what now? I can't just quit, although I really really really want to just quit . This whole musical to me is just some bullcrap fake gambler things. Half the audience wouldn't even have enough American culture to understand the significance of this musical. No one would get it, but us. This is pointless then dont you think so? I mean if we are going to have a performance no one understands, then why have it at all? Also I think some of the props are really dumb and not well made at all. They are all wobbly, broken, or just does not look like what its suppose to be.

2011/4/25

 What a night. Tonight will be a night I remember, maybe a night I remember forever, a night that will live on with my soul until the day I pass. Today, I have over came myself, and performed the unexpected. Today, I have made my self a better person. And Tonight, I have found myself. This day, 4/25 will be a day I remember forever, a day I remember with the victorious feeling I had. Tonight will the be the night that I will remember, as the day I have grown up, grown up into a better man, a man with his own thoughts and opinions rather than tied up by his girlfriends. Tomorrow, I shall fear nothing,nothing shall stand in my way, as I continue on this maze of life with such wonderful twists and turns. Tomorrow, I relive myself, I will relive myself, as a man I started out, two and half years ago, on this exact soil, on this exact time. The past no longer haunt me at night, now the only place I could see the past is the not so vivid pictures of yesterday I have in my mind. Tonight, I have broken free. Tonight, I found myself.

2011/4/24

 Well what a day. Today was so fun, we went to nanliao. I went with a couple of friends. It was a beautiful sunset along with some food. The vermilion sun shadowing a slight orange on the unsettling ocean waves. That was such a beautiful sight. I haven't had this much fur for a while. Well tomorrow  is just another dumb day at school. God why do we have to go to school. Being in school is so boring, I hate everything in school. But I enjoy the gatherness and how close some of us are in school. I love school sometimes just for the friends sometimes. I am watching South Park and I am considering ending the fabulous day with a relaxing episode of South Park. I am watching the episode called Cripple Fight. Its when Jimmy gets new to town, and Timmy gets jealous because he is another handicap but with more popularity than him. This is a pretty good episode. Alright I am done for the night. Peace

2011/4/20

  Well today was not that fun. I just did nothing right afterschool. Sometimes I feel as if we are trying so hard for the musical just to work. I mean I joined for Vicki I guess and that went down the drain? So now its just pointless being onstage pretending something Im not. I feel as if no one that would come and watch the show, would get what we are doing and saying. I mean, you need to have some advanced profound American culture background to get this musical. When people think of crapshooters, they would think people who are probably doo doo players. THen it would not make any sense for the whole show. Why are we all putting our ass into it when we don't even get paid. When she forced all the guys to join. I mean I guess shes a chill teacher and all, but sometimes her yelling and screaming just makes me want to slap her across the face and tell her how I feel. Like really? Why are you being so dramatic and serious at the same time. I know your an actor, I know your background makes you all "sensative" but com on. We are normal people, we don't have emotions like you "artists." Argh goodnight

2011/4/19

 Well what do you think about today? I feel as if today was just an empty vacant shell that looked like me that showed up for class. I wasn't even apart of all the classes and all the extra homework and everything. I feel as if today, everything didn't matter, nothing. I just wanted to get through the end of the day. Today, my mind was left home, while my body went to work. Today, I am again reconsidering all the mistakes I have ever made before. I guess today was just like one of those reflection days where people just think back at all the foolish things they have done. I feel as if I just want to stop caring about everything, and do what I want to do for a change. Nothing is controlling me now. I feel tired. I need some sleep. Gooodnight

2011/4/18

 Well first day of school,  That was pretty boring. I sometimes hate school after a long break like a weekend. I hate Mondays. I got some new contacts today, I needed it, I ran out after around 12 weeks of use. I saw alot of car crash videos on youtube. That sort of freaked me out, to me that is just crazy how people drive everywhere like maniacs endangering other's lives while they are putting their head on the chopper as well. That is just crazy. I hate driver's like that. I am just so scared that the accident wouldn't even be our fault, it would be other's fault but while that was happening, we are already putting our lives in jeopardy. Today was a long day. I am out!

2011/4/17

 Well what a boring weekend. That is all I can say about this three day emptiness of mine. I spent absolutely no time outside. I spent a lot of time being in my house, watching youtube videos, facebook, and even some Tv. Seriously, why is my life so boring. And I really really want to make money. Like ALOT. I just want to be able to save up my own money and buy all the things I want. I just want all of these, nice accessories. I know i know. You want these things, but are they needs or wants? All of my things are wants. Haha, Such a terrible truth. God I wish I don't turn out to be those super spoiled corrupted kids in the cooperate world that just burns down their dad's life long career and success because they are just too stupid and lack abilities for the company to run well. I wish I don't become one of those people. I want to be self made man someday. I want to start from ground zero, nothing inherited from the family. I want nothing, but an education and a story behind me. I want to start everything for myself, such as buying my own house, own car, own business. I want everything made from me. Not handed to me as if I was on a pedestal. Well I always think about things like this, but honestly I don't know if I will succeed or not. Just have to be positive! NIghts Cheers.

2011/4/14

 I have been so tired these days. I don't know why. Maybe because I exercise everyday and I stay up until very late everyday or soemthing but I feel so tired all the time. How was your day? Mine went pretty well.I had most of my easy classes and in the afternooon I just skated with my friends and enjoyed a good can of Arizona tea. It was pretty good, I like the green tea version of it though, rather than the lemon tea version which I thought was way too sweet. Well I just thought It would be nice to go out with my friends once in a while and skate. I also went out with another friend afterschool and just relaxed with her. It was pretty fun as well, I hope I could do this more and more with her for the rest of the year. I sometimes love the feeling of being tired. Alright, going to bed.

2011/4/13

 Today was pretty fun.I went out with friends to eat dinner and chubby's. then we just relaxed afterwards until around 10 30. That was fun, the grilled chicken leg burger was the bomb. The barbeque sauce along with the nice vegetables and the boneless chicken. It was literally an orgasm in the mouth. I had some fun at the restaurant as well, I just talked with a couple of my buddies and just relaxed while waiting for the food to come. It was a very fun trip today. I also gave a very convincing speech on abortions in expository writing class. It was very fun and very catchy I guess. That was a very fun thing for today as well. I am just glad Wednesday is over because once I am done with this, I am done with the week. Chao, going to sleep.

2011/4/12

 Today was fun as well. I hung out with some friends after school. This is what I do everysingle day after school, hanging out with friends and eating. Today I went to the gym with bill. We hit our chest and triceps pretty hard, doing from bench presses to dumbbell flies to tricep pull downs. It was fun and I cannot wait until my chest and triceps start to get sore tomorrow. It would be the best feeling in the world getting my body sore. I love that kind of feeling. We also downed some protein powder mixed with some milk powder. It was the most gross thing I have never had to drink. That taste of vanilla pondered in my mouth that whole time. That whole time I was out, I had that milk powdery taste in my mouth. It was awful. Well today was a very fun day and tomorrow I am going to buy some chicken breasts for myself so we can start eating healthy and gain some muscle mass. It would be the greatest most awesome thing I have started for myself. Beach body '11, here I come!

2011/4/11

 Today was the first day of the first extra credit for the last quarter. The last long stretch dude! You kept up for two quarters and you have to keep it up for the last one! I know you can do it! Spring break was absolutely terrific. I have hung out with my friends from all over until very late every single day. It was fun, absolutely the times I would remember when I grow up. I think sometimes you have to just enjoy life, and just go out, not think, do stupid things, and then come back regretting it. What is the fun of a life staying in your home all the time being safe and living until very old but have nothing to tell your grandkids? But no, you wouldn't have any grandkids because you would not go out and meet anyone so you would not end up getting married. Why do people measure their life as how long it is, rather than how great it was lived? I think that is a very strong quote by the comedian of Gabriel Iglesias. Very funny guy, he is latino and has many funny stories. I am going to sleep man!

2011/3/31

  Well today was the end of the term. I think. Well its finally spring break and there are so many things to look forward to doing. I love breaks like this, I am going to buy so much stuff with all the cash I have been saving up. Then there would be tons of parties and then we would tear the place up. I love parties, I love loud electronic music playing, the bass drops, the bass points, everything. The night, the feeling, the atmosphere. What could be better than that? How many times do I have to tell everyone to party? They would not join and then regret it after hearing how awesome it was. Well there are just so many things to be looking forward to doing during the break. Tomorrow I have to have the musical rehersal in the morning and then go help the prom people set up whatever they need to do. Well I am kind of tired, going to sleep. Yes I know it is early, but I am going to sleep. Peace.

2011/3/30

 Today was fun. I loved today. Today was a day of friends and laughter and arguing with the teacher I hate the most. Mr. Jacoby. I am going to address him as Wes in this blog because his name is just a pain in the ass to type. Well guess what happened today? I argued for my paper, because of that selfish bunghole. Who does he think he is? You don't tell me how to write my paper, I have been writing just like that for the past year, and now your giving me a crappy ass grade for this? Wow. You are just a terrible teacher. You have no lesson plans, you waste our class time on moments of silences, you waste our time with stuff we already know? Really?? Verbs??? Nouns??? dude. We are not five. We are not retarded like you think we are. Just because your bigger than me you think you can rule everything around me? Guess what? Your nothing but a worthless drunk that has absolutely no life and that is why you don't even know how to do your job correctly. You waste our time in our day on teaching us something I learned in the 7th grade. And guess what? The funniest thing is that we are going back to that unit once again. Goodjob. Thanks for wasting our time. Wes

2011/3/29

 What a boring day. I just staied out all day and played with my friends. I sometimes realize PAS is so boring and I wish I could have some more fun and drama in my life. Guess just have to wait until next year! Well today I just had fun with a lot of people after school. I realized I haven't skated in a very long time. Well what could I do? Prom is near and I am not taking that too well. I am not going to go haha, I guess it is just best for both worlds. I wouldn't be in her way and she wouldn't get to me. Well tonight I have decided to watch Notrious B.I.G again. The movie on the legendary rapper biggie smalls and the East coast West side feud. It was fantastic, that is the only word I can describe the movie as. Absolutely fantastic and amazing. The way the plot and the conflicts were managed an put together into a movie. I think I just now know biggie smalls alot better and I feel as if he was just a close friend of mine. Well I guess that would never happen considering him to be dead the year I was born. Well it has been a long night.

2011/3/28

 I am addicted to a song called Everest, by the band Ratatat. They are very talented, creating music that will trip you out of your mind. The musical melody floats in the air traveling in and out of my ear, informing me of its own special language. I understand this language, this language of relaxation and beauty. I finally understand now. If everything in life would be as smooth as this song, no transitions, just smooth, all the way through. Why? Wouldn't that be very nice? I must agree so. No curves, no dramatic bass drops, no string quartets, nothing, but a simple tune, that sends the chills to my bones. I love this song. Absolutely brilliant. I figured, I only live life once, why not give it the best out of me. Why not do everything to the best? Why not try my very hardest until the day of my death? That is indeed what I would start doing right now. I would start treating everything like it was a gift. I am such an optimistic guy, I feel as if anything bad happens to me, it is a sign sent from god to show displeased of my actions and thinkings. I would then need to adjust myself to not being like that. I would need to change everything until less bad things happen to me. I love my life. I love me.

2011/3/27

 What a weekend. This weekend I have just relaxed with friends and alone in my house. I love this kind of freedom. I have all the house to myself, I can crank up some of my music as long and as loud as I want at night. I can do whatever I want, going out in the middle of the night for some food, anything I want, I can have. Well this weekend was just full of friends, mostly with the closer ones. I spent all of my time with them, going out with them, eating meals with them, sharing feelings haha. Well It was fun, I love this kind of feeling. I sometimes realize the beauty and the nice things in life. Everyone would have some bumps and lumps in their life, but when you actually take time and slow down every once in a while to realize the nice little details in our life that makes us happy, you would realize that you love your life, and life is truly beautiful. When you face a situation that you don't particularly enjoy or like, you have two options. You could never roll over the big problem on your back, and just eventually get over it as soon as possible. Realize the beauty that surrounds you rather than the dark clouds that lingers above your head. I have realized this tonight. And I am going to end all of this tonight. Goodnight. Cheers

2011/3/24

 Another day with friends. Like I said I am changing to friends rather than anything right now. Well today was an okay day. I got a 98 on my Geometry test? yay! haha. Well I am just relaxed right now with a bottle of tea next to me and some nice jazz music going on in my room. Tomorrow is Friday! and I am going to get hammered. Life has been tough on me, leave me alone. I think sometimes people don't deal with their problems as nice as they should be dealing with it. Like me sometimes, I think I am overall a pretty good problem solver and i can get over things pretty easily, but this time, this stroke me hard. Knocked me down completely. But what can I do or say? Sometimes love comes around, but when it knocks you down, you just get back up when it knocks you down. That is exactly how I am living it right now and I am recovering much better. I am excited though! Going to the Shing02 concert end of April. That would be a great way to end the year and a great way to blow off steam when all this crap has been going on in my life. Well I am going to sleep, Today has been a fun day and a very nice day. Hope tomorrow would be the same. Cheers Mr.Dahl!

2011/3/23

 Well today was another fun day. Another day out with the friend, another day to chill around downtown Hsinchu watching everyone's life fly by. Well what can I say? If mine's this boring, I have to watch other people's just to make mine interesting. What I have noticed is that the plaza downtown always has something interesting going on. I saw a highschooler making out with a middle age fat guy yesterday, I am guessing, bought love? Who knows? The other day I also saw two bums drunk and fighting with each other. That was pretty interesting as well. Well I cannot wait until Friday, I am going out on Friday with another friend and spending all night doing something I haven't done in a while. You know what I have realized? I realized I really enjoy the car freedom. I think I will be getting a 370z in college. One of my favorite cars ever since I was a little boy. Well today was a good day, sorry for the continuous short posts. I will keep mine longer later on. Nights!

2011/3/22

 Well its Tuesday. Today was more fun, I had a decent day at school and went out with a friend after school for dinner. That was a pretty good thing to do after school. We went to eat this noodle thing near downtown Hsinchu and then we just ended up going around Hsinchu. I love friends right now, helping me go through this tough time in my life. It is okay, I would like to have a friendship that lasts rather than a relationship that breaks your heart and ruins your life after. I think one of the most important things in life, are friends. Friends are there for you when you are sad, when you are happy, when you are feeling whatever, you can share it with your friend. Well what can I say? I have been spending alot of time with friends and that is exactly how I feel. I hate backstabbers though. I have been dealing with backstabbers these days, well it turned out to be one of my friend. I hate having to deal with this, why can't this be more simple? I just don't get why friends would do things like this to your close friends. Whatever.  Goodnight

2011/3/21

 Well its Monday! woopee. I hate mondays, whoever invented mondays was a dumbbutt. Why would you have a day of work right after Sunday?? Hahah I am just playing. I don't care if I have to work on Mondays. I like Mondays sometimes, I like the feeling of English class in the morning. I am not kidding, I actually enjoy English class, Its fun, its interesting, and its not that hard. That was not a sign for you to make it harder Mr.Dahl. I somtimes realize how people hate Mondays. I think it honestly is not that bad! You know what I would like right now, I would like a piece of string cheese. Those are so delicious, I did not have those for almost three years now. The nice little piece of cheese that melts in your mouth while your teeth grinds it up slowly. Well prom is coming up, guess what? I am not going! Woohoo! How about that. A class rep not going. Oh well, nothing really to look forward to this year. Hope everyone has fun.

2011/3/20

 Well today was a pretty good day. Good weather, spent time with the family down in Taichung, pretty relaxed weekend. On Saturday I went out with Claire to take some photos for her class, it was pretty fun, we went all around Zhubei looking for stuff to take pictures of. Well there is no reason why I am typing this so late, just simply because I did not feel like sleeping until now. I have spent the rest of the weekend on the computer watching some weird movies. I just watched a movie called "Leaves of Green." It was a pretty good movie, it was all about the differences between this twin brothers, and how one was a well educated professor while the other was a pot addicted bum. It was a very interesting film. Then I spent alot of them on Ebay shopping for stuff that I have always wanted but could never get because I did not have the money saved or the money at all. Well I have noticed I am getting closer and becoming more of a serious friend with Claire. We both share some qualities in the past that we regret of. That is why I like having friends that has been through a similar situation as me. We can help each other deal with this. Well I am going to bed. Cheers!

2011/3/17

 Well its finally Thursday. Today was sort of a good day? I guess? I skated all after school in Zhubei and I just arrived home around 20 minutes ago. Tomorrow is poetry contest, I am honestly kind of glad that I wasn't the last few, because I would hate to go up to read my poem infront of everybody. I am kind of exhausted right now, actually very exhausted right now. I feel as if my bones were disconnected with my body. I was supported by nothing but a flab of human flesh. I hate spirit week now, no one in my grade is doing this at all and I am starting to get pissed off at people who are just so low spirited and think they are awesome and cool to be rebellions but when it is actually the opposite, when they are the minorities for not dressing up. God I hate those people. Tomorrow I am going to show up at school with nothing but boxers. Anyways, today I skated for around 4 hours, but I feel super good because of that hot feeling and accomplishment when you skate. I love skating, this is part of me and part of who I am and will always be part of who I am. When I skate, I forget everything bad that has happened to me all day, all week, all month and all year long. Nights fool! cheers!

2011/3/16

 I am going to first apologize for the foul language and boring content that could be coming up. I know this is a school thing, but I really really need a place to express how I feel right now. First of all, I feel betrayed, I feel shattered, all over again. That feeling of numbness in my body just scares me. Why do I still like her? Why? Why is everything so fucking hard to deal with?? Am I a bad guy? What did I do to deserve this? No words can ever put my pain right now on paper, nothing and no one would ever be able to get this. Your a bad women, your a mad women, you have no idea whatever you do, little things like this, can fuck up a persons day, or even fuck up his week. I am shocked, at all these absurd things you could do. I thought wrong, I thought of you as the person you said you were. I thought you were going to be by my side. I thought wrong. I am worn out, completely worn out. I cannot take this anymore. I am going to sleep. You really fucked my life up, I hope your happy.

2011/3/15

  Wow blogger just deleted my whole entry just then. I was saying I am very tired considering of staying up all day long last night and lasting until right now without a single second being asleep. Well I got sad again today! haha. I guess I am not completely over Vicki yet. Well not quite at all haha. Well I have been missing her everyday and I just realize I do more and more each day. She seems fine without me, which is what hurts me the most. Well my day was normal, didn't dress up as the panda I was going to be before. I thought it was dumb and rather annoying than anything else when I was putting on the costume. So then I just decided to eventually ditch it. Well It has been an interesting week so far, two days, but everyone seems to be participating with the spirit week. That is something good and something I would like to see more later on. Well today has been fun, I am now loaded with homework from you sir, I will get going. Goodnight and have a wonderful animal day.  Cheers

2011/3/14

 Wow. Another night of staying up and doing nothing. This is not good for my body, and I can feel it building up. I really have to stop doing this. Well tomorrow is animal day and I think I will just go rent a costume. I think that is the best way to get my grade pumped up? You never know. I am kind of sleep deprived right now. I shouldn't have done this. Why am I so dumb? Well my day yesterday was fun. Me and Bill went to surprise Claire and Ethan at their houses at like nine o'clock. Then we went to Melissa's and did the exact same thing. It was fun, after getting a couple of tacos and burritoes. I am going to school now. Goodbye.

2011/3/13

 Well what a day. I have infact just came back from skating, yes at 12 o'clock at night. See how much freedom my parents give me? I love them for this though. I just came back from Taipei from a whole day of skating with some friends. I slammed my body on the ground today because I wasn't looking. Fell straight on my right forearm. Hurts so much right now. I haven't fell this hard in a really long time. The worse part is that I fell right infront of the busy streets in Taipei, that made me look bad haha. Well my weekend had been boring. You know what made me paranoid though? The nuclear spill in Japan. I am so scared right now the radiation would blow towards Taiwan and we would all start growing a fetus out of our hip or something. I hope everyone in Japan gets better and will be able to recover from the earthquake soon. This is like the taiphoon that was here a couple of years ago that wiped out the town in Taichung. That was scary. I am actually considering getting a job in the environmental research field just so that we could save our planet and actually be a human being that contributes to the society rather than a scumbag that litters and takes number twos on the ground. Well I hope everyone in Japan gets better. Japan, you have my wishes! Goodluck!

2011/3/10

 Well today was PD day, and we still had to come to school. I think this musical is fun, but as it gets more closer to the performance date, the more harsh Ms.Alison gets. I like her as a friend, but I don't like her as a teacher at all. She is way too emotional as a teacher, its almost like dealing with an artist. No offense to all those artists out there. Well today was kind of tiring, the reason why I did this post so early was because I have nothing to do and I am basically bored out of my mind right now. We have to do this Cuban dance thing for the musical and to be honest, I am enjoying it. Haha, hard to believe huh? I just think it is sort of like a change in pace in life. Not always the same thing that happens over and over again. As in I don't want to do the same things over and over in my life. So it is good, having this musical and dancing with Caroline as a partner is pretty fun. She is basically leading me. I forget so many steps and she just leads it for me. What I didn't like is how we cannot enjoy our PD day just for the musical. I really hate this, we are sacrificing so many things for basically nothing. I mean Ms.Alison won't even be here to watch us. I hate how she wouldn't be here I guess. Well not everything goes the way you want haha. Cheers!

2011/3/9

  Well I am proud to say I am finally done with all my homework. I am just glad I don't have to spend my tomorrow doing these kind of work. Sometimes songs I listen to feels as if it was to speak about my life and my opinions on things. "What if everything you wished for was in reach" that quote hit me hard. Mainly because I always feel as if everything I want is just so far and way too distant to even think that I would ever get to my goal. I always feel as if time is going by pretty fast, but now, the last few months of the school year feels like forever. I wish I could fast forward all this. I am tired of getting upset over her. I am upset over seeing her differently with guys. I am tired with all these things. I have came to realize, she treated me this way, while I gave her my everything. Does that mean no girls ever deserve love? I always end up with that as conclusion every time I think about this. If I worked so hard, being whipped and being stepped on throughout this long time, and then this still happens to me? Wow, I am pretty sure that no girls deserve love if that is the case. I just hate myself alot. I believe this is all karma, and this is just all hitting me now for what I have done to the girls in the past. I guess, what goes around comes around.

2011/3/8

 Tuesday, hm. Lasting through this week faster and faster. I sometimes realize how much traveling means to me. I haven't been to many places in my life, I have only been to China and Malaysia, and that is about it. But what I realized is that, traveling broadens a person's view. It makes the person see other cultures and what they appreciate and worship in their society rather than living in their own world. I think traveling is very important and I am planning on opening a traveler's savings account when I grow up. Just so I can broaden my perspective of this world, see the world from someone else's angle. These days, I have been considering of becoming a Psychologist. Not because I feel pity towards mentally disabled people, not because I like helping other people, but simply because, I want to see other people's lives. I want to live a life, where I can see the world from other people's perspective. Even if the person is mentally retarded, I still want to see how they see problems as. I love doing this, I love learning about other people's view on the world. How they treat problems, what kind of problems they face. All sorts of things these people run into. To me, it broadens my perspectives on life, and makes me cherish what I have rather than what I don't have.

2011/3/7

 Oh Monday, what a boring and tiring day. After a weekend of absolute no academic life, then suddenly with everything being dropped on my head? Wow it sucks. I have to say I have never ever met a person in my life with the same amount of intelligence of Derek. I really think he is a genius academically, with all his implanted equations and patted vocabularies. But what I heard from Ms.Pamela is that he only likes to learn what he is interested in. Of course that is the case for everyone, but in his case, he would suck at other things that he dislikes. I don't believe that, I think he would still be good at what he learns. He has a bionic brain, he has the brain power to store literally anything he wants. He has the brain power to copy and perform the same equations over and over again no matter the different problems. He is a very smart guy and I have alot of respect for him. Today was boring, I just found out I have a huge Spanish test. Well, what could I do. I also think Mr. Jacoby is pathetic. He threatens our class before the English department judge comes? Good teachers shouldn't need to do that. What a tool.

2011/3/6

 Well its sunday night and I am bored out out of my mind. This weekend I have staied in Hsinchu and spent the whole weekend in my friend's house. From all the way on Friday until Sunday. Believe it or not, I hardly spent any time in my home. I am so bored of everything around here. I want next school year to come already. The time is not the best for me in my life like all of you know. What else can I tell you? My weekend was terribly boring. I went skating on Saturday with Ethan and I spent the rest of the day cooking our homemade burger the size of a frying pan, and I am not even joking. Me, Ethan, Bill, Melissa, spent our Saturday afternoon making our delicious dinner, the burger. It consists of bacon, patties, fries, chicken nuggets, and anything else you want to add into it. We call it "the burger" creative huh? Well that is about all for me and my weekend. How about yours? Was it fulfilling like mine? Let me know

2011/3/3

 Well what a day! What can I say, another day like this passes by and my heart remains shattered. I won't carry on and bore you with my sad love life, instead I am going to have a little rant about something. Bieber haters. Mr. Dahl, I know you probably am thinking, what the hell is a Bieber? Well let me tell you, he is a teenage boy that sings love songs, but due to his high, female resembling voice, he has attracted millions of haters. Therefore, the term Bieber hater has been born. The thing is, I know he sounds more like a girl than Selena Gomez, but I don't get why people hate him that much. Just because he is different? Just becuase he attracts millions and millions of teenage girls world wide? I think the haters are all guys who cannot get any girls they like. I think people are actually just jealous of his popularity and his success in the American music industry. I have to admit, I am a hypocrite, I used to be a Bieber hater just as well. But now I realized, he didn't really do anything wrong to us. He just tried to make some money for himself by singing. It is not his fault that he hasn't gone through puberty yet. So I think for all you Bieber haters out there, stop hating. It is getting boring and its not even cool anymore.

2011/3/2

 My apologies first for the non vlog post. This is due to my sister's camera having some problems and it will be fixed very soon. Mean while I will be posting with just the regular blog. Today was a weird day, it is kind of weird for me these few months. Everyone keeps asking me about Vicki. Well yes I broke up with her guys, big deal? My emotions have been getting better, until hers started getting better, mine went plunging through the floor, all the way to the other side of the world. At its deepest point. There are times I wish I would just vanish, somewhere far far away, somewhere I could start fresh. There are times I wish I could time travel and go back to the happy times and fix all the things that went wrong. I don't know, I hate myself right now. Even if the cause of the break up was mainly because of Vicki, I still don't know why I blame myself for everything. Okay enough about depressing things. My day was weird, like I said. I think she went on a date with another dude? Well that sucks? haha. Life blows, whatever. Other than that, today was a pretty alright day. I wish my luck would change, I would do anything right now just for my luck to get better and change completely. Goodnight. Cheers.

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Valentine's Day

 I know it is not required to be typing a blog, but I think I am going to do one for the heck of it. This is honestly, the only place I could express my feelings. I can't tell any about it, because everyone thinks my choices are stupid and pointless. Wow. Tonight, I experienced pain. Not physical, but mental. That moment when I saw you walk away. Wow. That blew my mind. I made that card for you, took me a long time to learn how to do the rose. I sliced my thumb open for you. You know what sucks? I always choose the worse time to do things. I spent four thousand NT on your present the night you decided to mess me up. I then spent the rest of the night, cutting and pasting everything I knew about art, onto that piece of card for you. Sometimes I do feel foolish. Foolish for falling for a cat like you. I could've played you, infact I had atleast four times the chance to. But you know why I didn't? Because I thought, you were the most amazing person I have ever met, all of our similarities and likes and dislikes. We are identical I tell you. Because I thought, if I let my walls down for once, this could turn into something amazing, something every guy would kill for. Love. I did at last. Yay for me right? but you crushed me. All those texts you sent, made me feel like the luckiest man in the world. How foolish was I to believe you. How foolish was I to ever love a lady like this. How foolish was I to make you my everything. All I have been dreaming and thinking about, is to have you back. Seirously. If I had you back, my life would be normal. Atleast have you back until you graduate. I have been doing stupid things lately because of you. You don't know it because you simply don't care. I have been cutting down food because I just cannot eat anything. I have been sleeping less and less and less each day, all because, your all that goes on in my mind. Well its Valentines day. I hope your happy. <B

Vlog 2011/2/14

Rant on Dumb Questions (MakeUp2)

Chinese New Year Vlog (MakeUp)

Sunday Vlog2 2011/2/13

Vlog 1 1/30/2011

2011/1/27

  Can't stay up one more day. The more I stay up the more chance I will have with liver and kidney problems. haha that is the only thing stopping me from staying up today. I have no urge for things these days, food, sleep, fun, nothing. I just want to be alone, all alone, maybe on a beach, but still all alone. These days some questions popped into my mind, some annoying questions that will not leave my brain. I realize, life is tough, and life will never go as well as you think it should. Life will never keep giving you cakes and pies, instead they will give you breath taking sewage water with rotten mexican food that has been sitting out for four five days. Life, so great, yet so annoying at times. This makes me start wondering, what will I be when I grow up. Do I really want to throw my head into the big money game like my dad? What are my interests and what will make me happy? I have no idea, but when it comes to occupations, I first consider the money I get paid for first. The business game is too violent and vulgar for me. I feel as if all the stories my dad told me were like some really bad Taiwanese Tv show. I don't want to wake up everyday and wonder if the stock points dropped today or not. I want to wake up, loving my life, and loving what I do. Coming to this school made me realize, people should be choosing interest over money. This is one of the most important thing I have yet learned from Ms. Pamela. It makes sense, if I love what I do, I will be good at it. The thing is, all the things I love will not able to do it as a long term stable job. Selling cars? I don't want to live in Brooklyn for the rest of my life. Skateboarding? I don't want a job that will end when I reach my forties. So I am officially out of ideas. I think when it comes to occupations, being a psychologist and a lawyer comes closest to my interests. I love learning how to human brain thinks, this tough time I am going through right now, makes me feel like if I were a psychologist, I could cure myself. I want to get paid thousands of dollars for talking to a patient about their losses and fears. I am interested in what other people are facing in their life. Being a lawyer just brings up the side of the that loves arguing. If I love it, why not get paid for it right? I think being a lawyer could make me turn against my beliefs sometimes. Even if I know it was wrong, but I was getting paid alot to do it, I would be stuck and wouldn't know what to do. Whether money was more important or the society morals everyone keeps telling me about. I think I will end up being one of those two, and believe me, I will be good at it.

2011/1/26

 Well what a night. After a long night of staying up again, i feel drained out. Drained out as in my soul just fled my body leaving the outer core do all the job. I hate myself sometimes. Why did I ever do all those things for her to leave. I have been thinking, what if I was different, I wouldn't be doing this right now if I was a bit different. God, It would be nice to show us some heads up before you destroy our lives. I hate this. I hate this so much. I don't even know how I am going to deal about this for the next seven months. I really really hope sometimes, things would go back, and if I could fix that crucial point of my life, I would do whatever it takes, believe it or not, literally whatever, to fix it. I have to go to school now, no sleep, 24 hours, I have been up. Thinking about you.

2011/1/25

  I don't know what has gotten into me, I have been missing two journal entries in two days, so I've decided to pay more attention and do it right when I get home. Oh jeez what a long day. I think my life officially sucks without Vicki. I'm doing things I used to do before, but honestly, I don't enjoy it as much as I did before. Well what can I say, a guy without a doll is nothing. Today was a productive day, I completed many assignments and most of all, our English video was done. Wait to be blown out of your mind, because this time, the editing quality, Tony has decided to take it up a notch and do some things we've never tried in our life with filming. I think this time's editing would be very nice, and plus Tony was a splendid director, he did even a better job than I did for Harrison and Burgeron. The past week and a half has got me thinking, what is love? This question has always sounded cheasy and stupid, but I really want to know, what is love? Love can take your head out of your lousy week, but love can also kick you down to your lowest. Love can make you confused, love can make you do things you swore you would never do. What is love? What is this magical feeling we feel for someone? Why do we feel this way about certain people? I know it is pathetic of me writing all these especially when she is not that upset about this now. But love, you once brought me happiness, you once brought my smiles, but now you have slapped me across the face and told me to wake up. I hate you love, I hate you. Why do I need you to make me better??  Oh who am I kidding, love is the greatest thing in the world. 

2011/1/20 VB

  Wow, i staied up all night long. The only reason is because I am still kind of shocked at the fact that I didn't get what I wanted. The blog post I typed last night, yeah, I didn't get what I wanted. I was torn apart, I was devastated. You know what people say, love hurts, and that is true I have to tell you. Sometimes I wish I was just dreaming, so that I can get myself out of this relationship tornado that originated a while back. I hate myself sometimes. I always wonder if it is my fault to cause this. I always wonder what could I have done to prevent it. The answer is, everything. I guess this was all my fault, changing too much, and I guess she changed into a person hating whatever I changed into for her in the first place. It was a very contradicting thing. Sometimes I think, what is love, what is this magical feeling that makes us feel good, or makes us feel sad. Love, what a wonderful thing, I guess I lost mine, and I will find her back a few years later. Time and distance kills, but you know what, I know if we leave off on good terms like this, it may hurt at first breaking up like this, but I know if we leave on such good terms, she will be hoping to come back to me. Well I am still wearing the ring I gave her. I will until I find someone more special. And if your reading this, I will be waiting for you, like we said, three years later where everything could be better. I love you, I miss you. <B

2011/1/19

   Well what a day. Nothing really happened in school today. I went out with a bunch of friends for dinner and I have got to say it was pretty fun. It had been a long time since the last time I saw Dennis. The ten of us just went to dinner in a Thai restaurant and chatted for a long time. I just got back in fact. There has been nothing in my life but drama these days. I hope I can get what I want out of this. If I don't get what I want, I will be depressed for the next three years and I am not kidding about this. This situation has never occured to me in my life. In my previous social life in Shanghai, everyone just kind of handed things to me. Now for what I want, I have to earn it. If you ask anyone in the school how hard I work for it, they would be telling you just how much I want to get what I want out of this. I am so tired,  since Sunday I have been in a super depressed mood, everytime I think about what could happen, a little bit of myself on the inside dies. This is why people kill themselves over things like this, it simply hurts too much. I can't stand my life if I do not actually get what I want. You would think"Oh you're just fourteen years old, you haven't met half the people in your life yet" well guess what? I know no one will be just as special as that person is. I have never imagined my life with out that person. When I first met that person, I knew that person was someone very special, and I can actually tell. Don't think just because I am fourteen and I don't know what I am talking about. I think you're wrong and you're wrong big time. If I have a time machine, I would fast forward my life. No not even fast forward my life, Just make myself 3 years older where I should belong. I hope god would see the correct side of this and let me get what I want. I have never wanted something this much. Never. I just simply can't live with out that person.  Goodnight

2011/1/18

  Well what a lousy week. Nothing seems to be going right. Whenever I detect that something would finally be better, it slams my excitement and happiness down like a mosquito getting whacked by a mosquito net. I seriously, seriously hope everything would be over soon, I can't take this much longer. This will  make me so stressed, I would probably start losing my hair. I am not kidding, This is how stressed I am. Sometimes I wonder, why can't things work perfectly in life. I always think back to a few years ago and think, What have I done that is so bad that it is making me get what I am getting today. There are no such thing as a perfect situation. When you have an apple covered in caramel, the caramel could be too sticky, or anything that is messing up your "perfect situation". I know this does not sound like it makes any sense, but it does. When you meet a friend, they could have a very close personality to you, but there will always be things that screws it up. When you get your dream job, at your dream executive firm, you could be thinking "wow what a perfect job", then one day, something would eventually hit you down from the top. This world does not make sense to me. This world does not at all. I wish I could sometimes just quit and stop living anymore, but I know that I would just be a coward backing off whenever I don't side step a rock in my way. People in life, would always face trouble. I know myself that I won't let myself give up and backing out, even in the worse situations. I will not back down. Goodnight

2011/117

  I really do love Vicki alot. I really genuinely do. She doesn't realize it, she sees it, she loves me just as much. I hope that this whole conflict would just die out soon. Nothing much, just die out, like a balloon popping. I hope she actually does realize how much love I am giving her. I don't in a million years would want this to end. She and I, we have something special going for. We are not like any ordinary couple. We are special. Even if the distance after she graduates will kill both of us. But I still know, after the three years, we will end up together again. I am pretty sure of it, I am certain of it. Don't call me naive and tell me this is not how love works, let me tell you.  This is how love works. When you want somethings to happen, it will happen. When you don't really have faith in it happening, then nothing would happen. You know why people do long distance, not because they are foolish, simply because they believe it would work and in the end, they both find out it worked. I think, to me love is something only needed to be celebrated by the two people. No third person involved. I think the third person in a relationship is a true butthole. They are messing with two people perfectly fine with each other. They are just the extra one.Not exactly in the best mood.  I am going to sleep. bye

2011/1/16

  Today I spent around 4500 nt on Vicki's gift. I hope she likes it. I know it is a big number, but I have been saving up for her so its okay. Sometimes I feel as if I don't get treated as well in this relationship, but I guess its okay, all because I love her. haha. I am sick, very sick by the way. I did not go to school on Friday and Thursday I have been in bed that whole time. I think life is a very tricky thing sometimes. Who am I? and What am I here for. Where do I go after I die? These are all very commonly asked questions and I am sure you are just clueless as me. I hope we go to some place nice, with no gunfire involved, perfect weather and no drama whatsoever in our lives when we die. I hope before I die, I can live a fulfilling life that is filled with enriching events and meet interesting people along the way. I think living a fruitful life just means that I died doing what I love, and with completely no regrets. I don't want to die wiping windows for skyscrapers in the city, I don't want to die shining some guy's shoes. I want to die, doing what I love, as in a job, or just a hobby in general. I also want to spend my deathbed with someone I love. I don't wish to collapse due to overworking late night hours for my job. I want to die peacefully, with no regrets and with my family.

2011/1/13

  I was sick today so I didnt post, this was to make up for it. THere are no worse feeling than being sick. I feel like someone is taking a feather and constantly tickling my throat. I feel like my nose were clogged as if the toilet was stuck with toilet paper. This feeling sucks and I hate it. I need something to make me happy right now. I missed one journal out of my three chances, So I guess I am still okay. Today was a normal day, and I didnt go to school today. It was a tough day. There are many things I would rather be doing than being sick. I would be going through my computer to clean out things, I could be doing homework. Yes I would rather do homework than being sick. I need to get some sleep. Sorry for the short entry. Goodnight!

2011/1/12

  Wow Taiwan is getting cold. I have never even been in Taiwan in the winter, but I never expected to be this cold. There are so many places I would rather be right now. I want to take a break from my life and just go on a vacation. Not long, just a couple of months. Somewhere on a beach, a beach with sand as golden as the sun. A beach with calm waves that comes and goes throwing themselves on the sand when it reaches the surface. A beach with an enormous coconut tree, so big that I could just lay in the shade when I get a little too sick of the searing sunshine. Also there must be great chefs next to the beach. Everynight, I could enjoy the well grilled salmon with bits of grinded garlic on top of it, along with a bottle of wine and the sounds of the ocean. Everyday, Ill be out worshipping the sun and at noon, I shall enjoy the very finest gourmet dinner with the most expensive and delecate bottle of wine. If I could actually have that for two whole months, that would be golden. I have to do something like this in my life before I am too old to enjoy anything. Before hair stops growing on my scalp and before my bones get fragile like a glass rod. This is life, and I will live a live like that. This is one of my very little motivation to try to be successful in life later on. This kind of lifestyle and this kind of privelege. good night

2011/1/11

  Well look at the date! It is 20"11, 1, 11" haha just a very boring observation. Today was full of fun, I was at school, a pretty laid back day at school. Every class just went by relatively fast due to all of it being very easy. I think my Mondays and Wednesday are harder because just the courses throughout the whole day is just more tough with teachers that are slightly more strict. I think sometimes the more strict or the tougher the course is, will eventually crank out all of the student's ability rather in some classes for kids to slack off in. For example, I try hard in Mr. Dahl's class and I am not writing this to suck up or anything, but I think his class and him as a teacher is what the school should be looking for and should be hiring. We lost many good teachers in the past, Ms.Tsai, Mr. Vassilakis, Mr. Potter, and now I think Mr. Dahl is the only hard working and worth listening to teacher in the school. I think sometimes if all of the classes were like this, it would be so much easier to learn and to study. I always try not to fall asleep in Geometry or Chemistry, but in Mr.Dahl's I never have to try. Bottom line, He is an absolute great teacher who devotes himself into his job and asks for nothing but your success in return.

2011/1/10

  There are so many things i wish I could be doing right now. I wish I could be sleeping, that's number one, I wish i could be resting, that's number two, and I wish I could have my eye lids shut on a bed resting. You get my point. I am tired and I have a Chemistry exam soon, and I clearly don't get any of this. Sometimes I think, why do I need this credit when I won't be a chemists, biologists or a physician? I mean I won't remember this stuff after I leave high school chemistry, or biology, So why make it such a big deal that we all have to take this course and suffer? I hate this, I genuinely regret taking chemistry. I mean atleast Biology is understandable, has less equations and things to remember. I mean literature related classes are much easier for me even if my English is not perfect. In a language, there are no formulas, in a language, there are no hard analogies that you have to understand. In a language, all you need is to know some vocabulary and some grammar. That is basically what you need to do. I think sometimes it doesn't really matter if I know much vocabularies either because I can speak with the words I know. But the SATs just has to make it so much more difficult for me. Goodnight 

2011/1/9

   Well well well. This post will be the first to pass the amount of posts of my other blog. Today is a Sunday, the blog's first day of the week. After thirty posts, thirty days, countless ideas, I actually feel like this blog makes me more organized. By organized I mean by remembering things more often, I guess its time to finally be more responsible like what I have always should have done. Well today, I went on a mountain with my family to a temple to pray for my sister to have her eyes healed. Its been a long time, but I still think it will get healed. The rest of the day i spent it on youtube videos and some prettty goood foood. Haha, Just normal night market things I guess. I am getting sick though, I am getting a headache every now and then, and my throat hurts alot. I am sick so I can't really use the computer alot. Sorry. goodnight

2011/1/6

  I finally can sleep at 1 today. Haha that is a record in the last two weeks yes. Today I went to get Derek some gifts for his birthday and then Bill and I then tricked him into thinking that we are going to do something bad to him. He is falling for our trick every little bit. Haha, I cant wait for the shocked face when tomorrow he sees the Gundam figure we got him. That actually costed quite some money, around 2500 nt. For a little plastic figure, haha yes i know its not worth it, but i guess thats just what Derek likes. Today we also played ping pong after school. Wow my life is getting boring, as in, more boring than it used to be. Wow this is not good haha, I need something that will spice up my life. Goodnight, its late and im tied. 

2011/1/5

  Well today school was boring. I slept at four yesterday resulting me being super sleepy during all the classes. I hope no teachers saw that, but i kept on closing my eyes every thirty seconds. I am about to do the same thing tonight. Why do i have to do that.... I hate staying up this late for homework and it is super tiring....Today I read a pretty good story in the holt reader and it was called the Moustache. It was one of the most well written plot i have ever read in my life. Or maybe i just like the plot alot i guess. People would think it is very plain and boring because that kind of plot is all over books. I still cannot believe that break is over, I was hoping it would be a bit longer like three four weeks. That would be nice. Its 4:05 im going to bed.

2011/1/4

    Today was a regular day. Nothing really happened with school. I got this song by Nujabes called luv sic part 5. That is a goooood song. I think sometimes why are we working so hard on our homework when the teacher cant even see you put effort into it. Many teachers think i dont put effort into my work, but honestly i do. I guess i just cant work as well as those people that has perfect work and perfect scores on tests. Spanish test is happening right tomorow about 12 hours later. Wow no its sooo late. I am sorry i have to go to sleep, it is almost three right now. Ill try to write more on my other journal entries. Goodnight.

2011/1/3

   Well what a day. First day of school was more boring than ever. I could not believe that break has past and we have to finish SOOOO MUCH work for the the up coming Tuesday. I have Chemistry and Geometry homework which I piled up and plan on to procrastinate last minute which is today. Well serves me right I guess. Today, I got meat sauce all over my jeans. yay. I had to rush into the bathroom and soak my jeans into a hot bucket of water so the oil won't stain. There are completely no fun or interesting events to talk about today. Today in Mr. Dahl's English class, we watched two clips of TED talks. I think all those TED talks are super interesting considering how creative their ideas are and how much it could change the world. I saw one that was promoting green schools, which meant completely man made building out of natural resources. That is cool. I Have to go to my Geometry and Chemistry homework now. Bye

2011/1/2 Welcome Back!

   First off, Happy 2011. Let all wishes come true for you and I wish you to have a great year. Hmmm...I'm guessing everyone's blog will be about their break and what they did and things like that. Well I'm going to be a rebel and not do the same. Instead of talking about anything Christmas related, New years related, or Break related, I will be talking about 2012. What a weird topic you might think, and yes it is indeed a weird topic. Will we die when 2012 comes? Will the world really end? Will there be a polar shift? What will happen? To me, I think nothing. When that day comes, December Twenty Third of 2012, I shall stay up all night observing the world. If it does end, oh well I guess, I guess those Mayans were right after all. I think there are flaws in that rumor. Things like, which side of the world would end first? What will the other side of the world be doing while the other half is getting destroyed and slaughtered by explosions created by our mother Earth. See, I just thought of a huge mistake in that rumor. I don't really think that is real, but I just seriously hate hearing all the "its going to end! Oh no!" and all the people spreading it. Just like when the world turned 2000, did it end like the rumor said it would? NO. Those are just ways people make money with their new hit movies. I'm tired. Goodnight. Merry Christmas to you and a Happy new year.