2011/3/9

  Well I am proud to say I am finally done with all my homework. I am just glad I don't have to spend my tomorrow doing these kind of work. Sometimes songs I listen to feels as if it was to speak about my life and my opinions on things. "What if everything you wished for was in reach" that quote hit me hard. Mainly because I always feel as if everything I want is just so far and way too distant to even think that I would ever get to my goal. I always feel as if time is going by pretty fast, but now, the last few months of the school year feels like forever. I wish I could fast forward all this. I am tired of getting upset over her. I am upset over seeing her differently with guys. I am tired with all these things. I have came to realize, she treated me this way, while I gave her my everything. Does that mean no girls ever deserve love? I always end up with that as conclusion every time I think about this. If I worked so hard, being whipped and being stepped on throughout this long time, and then this still happens to me? Wow, I am pretty sure that no girls deserve love if that is the case. I just hate myself alot. I believe this is all karma, and this is just all hitting me now for what I have done to the girls in the past. I guess, what goes around comes around.