2011/3/16

 I am going to first apologize for the foul language and boring content that could be coming up. I know this is a school thing, but I really really need a place to express how I feel right now. First of all, I feel betrayed, I feel shattered, all over again. That feeling of numbness in my body just scares me. Why do I still like her? Why? Why is everything so fucking hard to deal with?? Am I a bad guy? What did I do to deserve this? No words can ever put my pain right now on paper, nothing and no one would ever be able to get this. Your a bad women, your a mad women, you have no idea whatever you do, little things like this, can fuck up a persons day, or even fuck up his week. I am shocked, at all these absurd things you could do. I thought wrong, I thought of you as the person you said you were. I thought you were going to be by my side. I thought wrong. I am worn out, completely worn out. I cannot take this anymore. I am going to sleep. You really fucked my life up, I hope your happy.