2011/1/18

  Well what a lousy week. Nothing seems to be going right. Whenever I detect that something would finally be better, it slams my excitement and happiness down like a mosquito getting whacked by a mosquito net. I seriously, seriously hope everything would be over soon, I can't take this much longer. This will  make me so stressed, I would probably start losing my hair. I am not kidding, This is how stressed I am. Sometimes I wonder, why can't things work perfectly in life. I always think back to a few years ago and think, What have I done that is so bad that it is making me get what I am getting today. There are no such thing as a perfect situation. When you have an apple covered in caramel, the caramel could be too sticky, or anything that is messing up your "perfect situation". I know this does not sound like it makes any sense, but it does. When you meet a friend, they could have a very close personality to you, but there will always be things that screws it up. When you get your dream job, at your dream executive firm, you could be thinking "wow what a perfect job", then one day, something would eventually hit you down from the top. This world does not make sense to me. This world does not at all. I wish I could sometimes just quit and stop living anymore, but I know that I would just be a coward backing off whenever I don't side step a rock in my way. People in life, would always face trouble. I know myself that I won't let myself give up and backing out, even in the worse situations. I will not back down. Goodnight