2011/1/16

  Today I spent around 4500 nt on Vicki's gift. I hope she likes it. I know it is a big number, but I have been saving up for her so its okay. Sometimes I feel as if I don't get treated as well in this relationship, but I guess its okay, all because I love her. haha. I am sick, very sick by the way. I did not go to school on Friday and Thursday I have been in bed that whole time. I think life is a very tricky thing sometimes. Who am I? and What am I here for. Where do I go after I die? These are all very commonly asked questions and I am sure you are just clueless as me. I hope we go to some place nice, with no gunfire involved, perfect weather and no drama whatsoever in our lives when we die. I hope before I die, I can live a fulfilling life that is filled with enriching events and meet interesting people along the way. I think living a fruitful life just means that I died doing what I love, and with completely no regrets. I don't want to die wiping windows for skyscrapers in the city, I don't want to die shining some guy's shoes. I want to die, doing what I love, as in a job, or just a hobby in general. I also want to spend my deathbed with someone I love. I don't wish to collapse due to overworking late night hours for my job. I want to die peacefully, with no regrets and with my family.