2011/3/31

  Well today was the end of the term. I think. Well its finally spring break and there are so many things to look forward to doing. I love breaks like this, I am going to buy so much stuff with all the cash I have been saving up. Then there would be tons of parties and then we would tear the place up. I love parties, I love loud electronic music playing, the bass drops, the bass points, everything. The night, the feeling, the atmosphere. What could be better than that? How many times do I have to tell everyone to party? They would not join and then regret it after hearing how awesome it was. Well there are just so many things to be looking forward to doing during the break. Tomorrow I have to have the musical rehersal in the morning and then go help the prom people set up whatever they need to do. Well I am kind of tired, going to sleep. Yes I know it is early, but I am going to sleep. Peace.

2011/3/30

 Today was fun. I loved today. Today was a day of friends and laughter and arguing with the teacher I hate the most. Mr. Jacoby. I am going to address him as Wes in this blog because his name is just a pain in the ass to type. Well guess what happened today? I argued for my paper, because of that selfish bunghole. Who does he think he is? You don't tell me how to write my paper, I have been writing just like that for the past year, and now your giving me a crappy ass grade for this? Wow. You are just a terrible teacher. You have no lesson plans, you waste our class time on moments of silences, you waste our time with stuff we already know? Really?? Verbs??? Nouns??? dude. We are not five. We are not retarded like you think we are. Just because your bigger than me you think you can rule everything around me? Guess what? Your nothing but a worthless drunk that has absolutely no life and that is why you don't even know how to do your job correctly. You waste our time in our day on teaching us something I learned in the 7th grade. And guess what? The funniest thing is that we are going back to that unit once again. Goodjob. Thanks for wasting our time. Wes

2011/3/29

 What a boring day. I just staied out all day and played with my friends. I sometimes realize PAS is so boring and I wish I could have some more fun and drama in my life. Guess just have to wait until next year! Well today I just had fun with a lot of people after school. I realized I haven't skated in a very long time. Well what could I do? Prom is near and I am not taking that too well. I am not going to go haha, I guess it is just best for both worlds. I wouldn't be in her way and she wouldn't get to me. Well tonight I have decided to watch Notrious B.I.G again. The movie on the legendary rapper biggie smalls and the East coast West side feud. It was fantastic, that is the only word I can describe the movie as. Absolutely fantastic and amazing. The way the plot and the conflicts were managed an put together into a movie. I think I just now know biggie smalls alot better and I feel as if he was just a close friend of mine. Well I guess that would never happen considering him to be dead the year I was born. Well it has been a long night.

2011/3/28

 I am addicted to a song called Everest, by the band Ratatat. They are very talented, creating music that will trip you out of your mind. The musical melody floats in the air traveling in and out of my ear, informing me of its own special language. I understand this language, this language of relaxation and beauty. I finally understand now. If everything in life would be as smooth as this song, no transitions, just smooth, all the way through. Why? Wouldn't that be very nice? I must agree so. No curves, no dramatic bass drops, no string quartets, nothing, but a simple tune, that sends the chills to my bones. I love this song. Absolutely brilliant. I figured, I only live life once, why not give it the best out of me. Why not do everything to the best? Why not try my very hardest until the day of my death? That is indeed what I would start doing right now. I would start treating everything like it was a gift. I am such an optimistic guy, I feel as if anything bad happens to me, it is a sign sent from god to show displeased of my actions and thinkings. I would then need to adjust myself to not being like that. I would need to change everything until less bad things happen to me. I love my life. I love me.

2011/3/27

 What a weekend. This weekend I have just relaxed with friends and alone in my house. I love this kind of freedom. I have all the house to myself, I can crank up some of my music as long and as loud as I want at night. I can do whatever I want, going out in the middle of the night for some food, anything I want, I can have. Well this weekend was just full of friends, mostly with the closer ones. I spent all of my time with them, going out with them, eating meals with them, sharing feelings haha. Well It was fun, I love this kind of feeling. I sometimes realize the beauty and the nice things in life. Everyone would have some bumps and lumps in their life, but when you actually take time and slow down every once in a while to realize the nice little details in our life that makes us happy, you would realize that you love your life, and life is truly beautiful. When you face a situation that you don't particularly enjoy or like, you have two options. You could never roll over the big problem on your back, and just eventually get over it as soon as possible. Realize the beauty that surrounds you rather than the dark clouds that lingers above your head. I have realized this tonight. And I am going to end all of this tonight. Goodnight. Cheers

2011/3/24

 Another day with friends. Like I said I am changing to friends rather than anything right now. Well today was an okay day. I got a 98 on my Geometry test? yay! haha. Well I am just relaxed right now with a bottle of tea next to me and some nice jazz music going on in my room. Tomorrow is Friday! and I am going to get hammered. Life has been tough on me, leave me alone. I think sometimes people don't deal with their problems as nice as they should be dealing with it. Like me sometimes, I think I am overall a pretty good problem solver and i can get over things pretty easily, but this time, this stroke me hard. Knocked me down completely. But what can I do or say? Sometimes love comes around, but when it knocks you down, you just get back up when it knocks you down. That is exactly how I am living it right now and I am recovering much better. I am excited though! Going to the Shing02 concert end of April. That would be a great way to end the year and a great way to blow off steam when all this crap has been going on in my life. Well I am going to sleep, Today has been a fun day and a very nice day. Hope tomorrow would be the same. Cheers Mr.Dahl!

2011/3/23

 Well today was another fun day. Another day out with the friend, another day to chill around downtown Hsinchu watching everyone's life fly by. Well what can I say? If mine's this boring, I have to watch other people's just to make mine interesting. What I have noticed is that the plaza downtown always has something interesting going on. I saw a highschooler making out with a middle age fat guy yesterday, I am guessing, bought love? Who knows? The other day I also saw two bums drunk and fighting with each other. That was pretty interesting as well. Well I cannot wait until Friday, I am going out on Friday with another friend and spending all night doing something I haven't done in a while. You know what I have realized? I realized I really enjoy the car freedom. I think I will be getting a 370z in college. One of my favorite cars ever since I was a little boy. Well today was a good day, sorry for the continuous short posts. I will keep mine longer later on. Nights!

2011/3/22

 Well its Tuesday. Today was more fun, I had a decent day at school and went out with a friend after school for dinner. That was a pretty good thing to do after school. We went to eat this noodle thing near downtown Hsinchu and then we just ended up going around Hsinchu. I love friends right now, helping me go through this tough time in my life. It is okay, I would like to have a friendship that lasts rather than a relationship that breaks your heart and ruins your life after. I think one of the most important things in life, are friends. Friends are there for you when you are sad, when you are happy, when you are feeling whatever, you can share it with your friend. Well what can I say? I have been spending alot of time with friends and that is exactly how I feel. I hate backstabbers though. I have been dealing with backstabbers these days, well it turned out to be one of my friend. I hate having to deal with this, why can't this be more simple? I just don't get why friends would do things like this to your close friends. Whatever.  Goodnight

2011/3/21

 Well its Monday! woopee. I hate mondays, whoever invented mondays was a dumbbutt. Why would you have a day of work right after Sunday?? Hahah I am just playing. I don't care if I have to work on Mondays. I like Mondays sometimes, I like the feeling of English class in the morning. I am not kidding, I actually enjoy English class, Its fun, its interesting, and its not that hard. That was not a sign for you to make it harder Mr.Dahl. I somtimes realize how people hate Mondays. I think it honestly is not that bad! You know what I would like right now, I would like a piece of string cheese. Those are so delicious, I did not have those for almost three years now. The nice little piece of cheese that melts in your mouth while your teeth grinds it up slowly. Well prom is coming up, guess what? I am not going! Woohoo! How about that. A class rep not going. Oh well, nothing really to look forward to this year. Hope everyone has fun.

2011/3/20

 Well today was a pretty good day. Good weather, spent time with the family down in Taichung, pretty relaxed weekend. On Saturday I went out with Claire to take some photos for her class, it was pretty fun, we went all around Zhubei looking for stuff to take pictures of. Well there is no reason why I am typing this so late, just simply because I did not feel like sleeping until now. I have spent the rest of the weekend on the computer watching some weird movies. I just watched a movie called "Leaves of Green." It was a pretty good movie, it was all about the differences between this twin brothers, and how one was a well educated professor while the other was a pot addicted bum. It was a very interesting film. Then I spent alot of them on Ebay shopping for stuff that I have always wanted but could never get because I did not have the money saved or the money at all. Well I have noticed I am getting closer and becoming more of a serious friend with Claire. We both share some qualities in the past that we regret of. That is why I like having friends that has been through a similar situation as me. We can help each other deal with this. Well I am going to bed. Cheers!

2011/3/17

 Well its finally Thursday. Today was sort of a good day? I guess? I skated all after school in Zhubei and I just arrived home around 20 minutes ago. Tomorrow is poetry contest, I am honestly kind of glad that I wasn't the last few, because I would hate to go up to read my poem infront of everybody. I am kind of exhausted right now, actually very exhausted right now. I feel as if my bones were disconnected with my body. I was supported by nothing but a flab of human flesh. I hate spirit week now, no one in my grade is doing this at all and I am starting to get pissed off at people who are just so low spirited and think they are awesome and cool to be rebellions but when it is actually the opposite, when they are the minorities for not dressing up. God I hate those people. Tomorrow I am going to show up at school with nothing but boxers. Anyways, today I skated for around 4 hours, but I feel super good because of that hot feeling and accomplishment when you skate. I love skating, this is part of me and part of who I am and will always be part of who I am. When I skate, I forget everything bad that has happened to me all day, all week, all month and all year long. Nights fool! cheers!

2011/3/16

 I am going to first apologize for the foul language and boring content that could be coming up. I know this is a school thing, but I really really need a place to express how I feel right now. First of all, I feel betrayed, I feel shattered, all over again. That feeling of numbness in my body just scares me. Why do I still like her? Why? Why is everything so fucking hard to deal with?? Am I a bad guy? What did I do to deserve this? No words can ever put my pain right now on paper, nothing and no one would ever be able to get this. Your a bad women, your a mad women, you have no idea whatever you do, little things like this, can fuck up a persons day, or even fuck up his week. I am shocked, at all these absurd things you could do. I thought wrong, I thought of you as the person you said you were. I thought you were going to be by my side. I thought wrong. I am worn out, completely worn out. I cannot take this anymore. I am going to sleep. You really fucked my life up, I hope your happy.

2011/3/15

  Wow blogger just deleted my whole entry just then. I was saying I am very tired considering of staying up all day long last night and lasting until right now without a single second being asleep. Well I got sad again today! haha. I guess I am not completely over Vicki yet. Well not quite at all haha. Well I have been missing her everyday and I just realize I do more and more each day. She seems fine without me, which is what hurts me the most. Well my day was normal, didn't dress up as the panda I was going to be before. I thought it was dumb and rather annoying than anything else when I was putting on the costume. So then I just decided to eventually ditch it. Well It has been an interesting week so far, two days, but everyone seems to be participating with the spirit week. That is something good and something I would like to see more later on. Well today has been fun, I am now loaded with homework from you sir, I will get going. Goodnight and have a wonderful animal day.  Cheers

2011/3/14

 Wow. Another night of staying up and doing nothing. This is not good for my body, and I can feel it building up. I really have to stop doing this. Well tomorrow is animal day and I think I will just go rent a costume. I think that is the best way to get my grade pumped up? You never know. I am kind of sleep deprived right now. I shouldn't have done this. Why am I so dumb? Well my day yesterday was fun. Me and Bill went to surprise Claire and Ethan at their houses at like nine o'clock. Then we went to Melissa's and did the exact same thing. It was fun, after getting a couple of tacos and burritoes. I am going to school now. Goodbye.

2011/3/13

 Well what a day. I have infact just came back from skating, yes at 12 o'clock at night. See how much freedom my parents give me? I love them for this though. I just came back from Taipei from a whole day of skating with some friends. I slammed my body on the ground today because I wasn't looking. Fell straight on my right forearm. Hurts so much right now. I haven't fell this hard in a really long time. The worse part is that I fell right infront of the busy streets in Taipei, that made me look bad haha. Well my weekend had been boring. You know what made me paranoid though? The nuclear spill in Japan. I am so scared right now the radiation would blow towards Taiwan and we would all start growing a fetus out of our hip or something. I hope everyone in Japan gets better and will be able to recover from the earthquake soon. This is like the taiphoon that was here a couple of years ago that wiped out the town in Taichung. That was scary. I am actually considering getting a job in the environmental research field just so that we could save our planet and actually be a human being that contributes to the society rather than a scumbag that litters and takes number twos on the ground. Well I hope everyone in Japan gets better. Japan, you have my wishes! Goodluck!

2011/3/10

 Well today was PD day, and we still had to come to school. I think this musical is fun, but as it gets more closer to the performance date, the more harsh Ms.Alison gets. I like her as a friend, but I don't like her as a teacher at all. She is way too emotional as a teacher, its almost like dealing with an artist. No offense to all those artists out there. Well today was kind of tiring, the reason why I did this post so early was because I have nothing to do and I am basically bored out of my mind right now. We have to do this Cuban dance thing for the musical and to be honest, I am enjoying it. Haha, hard to believe huh? I just think it is sort of like a change in pace in life. Not always the same thing that happens over and over again. As in I don't want to do the same things over and over in my life. So it is good, having this musical and dancing with Caroline as a partner is pretty fun. She is basically leading me. I forget so many steps and she just leads it for me. What I didn't like is how we cannot enjoy our PD day just for the musical. I really hate this, we are sacrificing so many things for basically nothing. I mean Ms.Alison won't even be here to watch us. I hate how she wouldn't be here I guess. Well not everything goes the way you want haha. Cheers!

2011/3/9

  Well I am proud to say I am finally done with all my homework. I am just glad I don't have to spend my tomorrow doing these kind of work. Sometimes songs I listen to feels as if it was to speak about my life and my opinions on things. "What if everything you wished for was in reach" that quote hit me hard. Mainly because I always feel as if everything I want is just so far and way too distant to even think that I would ever get to my goal. I always feel as if time is going by pretty fast, but now, the last few months of the school year feels like forever. I wish I could fast forward all this. I am tired of getting upset over her. I am upset over seeing her differently with guys. I am tired with all these things. I have came to realize, she treated me this way, while I gave her my everything. Does that mean no girls ever deserve love? I always end up with that as conclusion every time I think about this. If I worked so hard, being whipped and being stepped on throughout this long time, and then this still happens to me? Wow, I am pretty sure that no girls deserve love if that is the case. I just hate myself alot. I believe this is all karma, and this is just all hitting me now for what I have done to the girls in the past. I guess, what goes around comes around.

2011/3/8

 Tuesday, hm. Lasting through this week faster and faster. I sometimes realize how much traveling means to me. I haven't been to many places in my life, I have only been to China and Malaysia, and that is about it. But what I realized is that, traveling broadens a person's view. It makes the person see other cultures and what they appreciate and worship in their society rather than living in their own world. I think traveling is very important and I am planning on opening a traveler's savings account when I grow up. Just so I can broaden my perspective of this world, see the world from someone else's angle. These days, I have been considering of becoming a Psychologist. Not because I feel pity towards mentally disabled people, not because I like helping other people, but simply because, I want to see other people's lives. I want to live a life, where I can see the world from other people's perspective. Even if the person is mentally retarded, I still want to see how they see problems as. I love doing this, I love learning about other people's view on the world. How they treat problems, what kind of problems they face. All sorts of things these people run into. To me, it broadens my perspectives on life, and makes me cherish what I have rather than what I don't have.

2011/3/7

 Oh Monday, what a boring and tiring day. After a weekend of absolute no academic life, then suddenly with everything being dropped on my head? Wow it sucks. I have to say I have never ever met a person in my life with the same amount of intelligence of Derek. I really think he is a genius academically, with all his implanted equations and patted vocabularies. But what I heard from Ms.Pamela is that he only likes to learn what he is interested in. Of course that is the case for everyone, but in his case, he would suck at other things that he dislikes. I don't believe that, I think he would still be good at what he learns. He has a bionic brain, he has the brain power to store literally anything he wants. He has the brain power to copy and perform the same equations over and over again no matter the different problems. He is a very smart guy and I have alot of respect for him. Today was boring, I just found out I have a huge Spanish test. Well, what could I do. I also think Mr. Jacoby is pathetic. He threatens our class before the English department judge comes? Good teachers shouldn't need to do that. What a tool.

2011/3/6

 Well its sunday night and I am bored out out of my mind. This weekend I have staied in Hsinchu and spent the whole weekend in my friend's house. From all the way on Friday until Sunday. Believe it or not, I hardly spent any time in my home. I am so bored of everything around here. I want next school year to come already. The time is not the best for me in my life like all of you know. What else can I tell you? My weekend was terribly boring. I went skating on Saturday with Ethan and I spent the rest of the day cooking our homemade burger the size of a frying pan, and I am not even joking. Me, Ethan, Bill, Melissa, spent our Saturday afternoon making our delicious dinner, the burger. It consists of bacon, patties, fries, chicken nuggets, and anything else you want to add into it. We call it "the burger" creative huh? Well that is about all for me and my weekend. How about yours? Was it fulfilling like mine? Let me know

2011/3/3

 Well what a day! What can I say, another day like this passes by and my heart remains shattered. I won't carry on and bore you with my sad love life, instead I am going to have a little rant about something. Bieber haters. Mr. Dahl, I know you probably am thinking, what the hell is a Bieber? Well let me tell you, he is a teenage boy that sings love songs, but due to his high, female resembling voice, he has attracted millions of haters. Therefore, the term Bieber hater has been born. The thing is, I know he sounds more like a girl than Selena Gomez, but I don't get why people hate him that much. Just because he is different? Just becuase he attracts millions and millions of teenage girls world wide? I think the haters are all guys who cannot get any girls they like. I think people are actually just jealous of his popularity and his success in the American music industry. I have to admit, I am a hypocrite, I used to be a Bieber hater just as well. But now I realized, he didn't really do anything wrong to us. He just tried to make some money for himself by singing. It is not his fault that he hasn't gone through puberty yet. So I think for all you Bieber haters out there, stop hating. It is getting boring and its not even cool anymore.

2011/3/2

 My apologies first for the non vlog post. This is due to my sister's camera having some problems and it will be fixed very soon. Mean while I will be posting with just the regular blog. Today was a weird day, it is kind of weird for me these few months. Everyone keeps asking me about Vicki. Well yes I broke up with her guys, big deal? My emotions have been getting better, until hers started getting better, mine went plunging through the floor, all the way to the other side of the world. At its deepest point. There are times I wish I would just vanish, somewhere far far away, somewhere I could start fresh. There are times I wish I could time travel and go back to the happy times and fix all the things that went wrong. I don't know, I hate myself right now. Even if the cause of the break up was mainly because of Vicki, I still don't know why I blame myself for everything. Okay enough about depressing things. My day was weird, like I said. I think she went on a date with another dude? Well that sucks? haha. Life blows, whatever. Other than that, today was a pretty alright day. I wish my luck would change, I would do anything right now just for my luck to get better and change completely. Goodnight. Cheers.

2011/3/1