2011/4/28

 Today was so exhausting. It was terrible how we had to practice for nine straight hours. But it was good, it was pretty decent how we put up with the play. Today we had a full dress rehersal though, we had to put on gel and stuff. It was super tiring and I wish I could quit right now. But I won't, quitters are losers who cannot deal with their problems. Sometimes I hate having to go through all this hassle just to put up with a show I am not even getting paid for. I mean I am not asking everything for a return, but something would be nice, and something could motivate me alot more. Today was a pretty good day, we had play rehersal all day long and I got back at nine. After I got back I finished all my homework and was just waiting for my mom to go to sleep, so I could eat some snacks or two. I don't even know what I am saying right now, I am too tired. Nights

2011/4/27

 Wow I seriously hate Mr. Jacoby. I am no longer going to hide my anger and hold back my thoughts. I don't give a rat's ass about your class. You are a terrible teacher, you have no lesson plans whatsoever everyday, we have blank pauses inbetween things just because of you. You have absolutely no right and certainly no ability to be a teacher. Teachers, set a role model for kids. And you drink and smoke? I don't care if you're depressed of you sad miserable life, if that is how all role models are suppose to be like, then I mind as well start drinking and smoking. Really? Throwing me into Williamson's office because of a plastic bottle?? Dude, what are you five? Get over it, its not like its the first time you realized I hate your class. Well okay, I have to be honest, the whole class hates you, not just me. I am just the one that expresses my feelings more often because I feel as if my parents pay two hundred thousand nt per semester just to send me into this school, I want to get everything out of it. Your no benefit for me and my classmates at all. You will get it one day, just think, end of this year, you will be fired. Believe me. Then after that, you can go drink your budweisers all you want, go back to to your Wisconsin you red neck. You say you are well educated, that doesn't make you a good teacher. You say all the things about college, well guess what? I am in ninth grade. Your words don't hurt me, your actions don't trip me. You will be the one losing. Watch me.

2011/4/26

 what a boring day.What an absolute boring day with absolutely nothing that came up that was interesting. Wow. I hate this place. I wish sometimes my life would just be more interesting, than this whole guys and dolls thing. I really hate this musical sometimes, changing this changing that, it all is the same to me. I am not going to be a pro dancer when I grow up, why try so hard? Why did I even join? Oh right it was for Vicki, that went down the drain, so what now? I can't just quit, although I really really really want to just quit . This whole musical to me is just some bullcrap fake gambler things. Half the audience wouldn't even have enough American culture to understand the significance of this musical. No one would get it, but us. This is pointless then dont you think so? I mean if we are going to have a performance no one understands, then why have it at all? Also I think some of the props are really dumb and not well made at all. They are all wobbly, broken, or just does not look like what its suppose to be.

2011/4/25

 What a night. Tonight will be a night I remember, maybe a night I remember forever, a night that will live on with my soul until the day I pass. Today, I have over came myself, and performed the unexpected. Today, I have made my self a better person. And Tonight, I have found myself. This day, 4/25 will be a day I remember forever, a day I remember with the victorious feeling I had. Tonight will the be the night that I will remember, as the day I have grown up, grown up into a better man, a man with his own thoughts and opinions rather than tied up by his girlfriends. Tomorrow, I shall fear nothing,nothing shall stand in my way, as I continue on this maze of life with such wonderful twists and turns. Tomorrow, I relive myself, I will relive myself, as a man I started out, two and half years ago, on this exact soil, on this exact time. The past no longer haunt me at night, now the only place I could see the past is the not so vivid pictures of yesterday I have in my mind. Tonight, I have broken free. Tonight, I found myself.

2011/4/24

 Well what a day. Today was so fun, we went to nanliao. I went with a couple of friends. It was a beautiful sunset along with some food. The vermilion sun shadowing a slight orange on the unsettling ocean waves. That was such a beautiful sight. I haven't had this much fur for a while. Well tomorrow  is just another dumb day at school. God why do we have to go to school. Being in school is so boring, I hate everything in school. But I enjoy the gatherness and how close some of us are in school. I love school sometimes just for the friends sometimes. I am watching South Park and I am considering ending the fabulous day with a relaxing episode of South Park. I am watching the episode called Cripple Fight. Its when Jimmy gets new to town, and Timmy gets jealous because he is another handicap but with more popularity than him. This is a pretty good episode. Alright I am done for the night. Peace

2011/4/20

  Well today was not that fun. I just did nothing right afterschool. Sometimes I feel as if we are trying so hard for the musical just to work. I mean I joined for Vicki I guess and that went down the drain? So now its just pointless being onstage pretending something Im not. I feel as if no one that would come and watch the show, would get what we are doing and saying. I mean, you need to have some advanced profound American culture background to get this musical. When people think of crapshooters, they would think people who are probably doo doo players. THen it would not make any sense for the whole show. Why are we all putting our ass into it when we don't even get paid. When she forced all the guys to join. I mean I guess shes a chill teacher and all, but sometimes her yelling and screaming just makes me want to slap her across the face and tell her how I feel. Like really? Why are you being so dramatic and serious at the same time. I know your an actor, I know your background makes you all "sensative" but com on. We are normal people, we don't have emotions like you "artists." Argh goodnight

2011/4/19

 Well what do you think about today? I feel as if today was just an empty vacant shell that looked like me that showed up for class. I wasn't even apart of all the classes and all the extra homework and everything. I feel as if today, everything didn't matter, nothing. I just wanted to get through the end of the day. Today, my mind was left home, while my body went to work. Today, I am again reconsidering all the mistakes I have ever made before. I guess today was just like one of those reflection days where people just think back at all the foolish things they have done. I feel as if I just want to stop caring about everything, and do what I want to do for a change. Nothing is controlling me now. I feel tired. I need some sleep. Gooodnight

2011/4/18

 Well first day of school,  That was pretty boring. I sometimes hate school after a long break like a weekend. I hate Mondays. I got some new contacts today, I needed it, I ran out after around 12 weeks of use. I saw alot of car crash videos on youtube. That sort of freaked me out, to me that is just crazy how people drive everywhere like maniacs endangering other's lives while they are putting their head on the chopper as well. That is just crazy. I hate driver's like that. I am just so scared that the accident wouldn't even be our fault, it would be other's fault but while that was happening, we are already putting our lives in jeopardy. Today was a long day. I am out!

2011/4/17

 Well what a boring weekend. That is all I can say about this three day emptiness of mine. I spent absolutely no time outside. I spent a lot of time being in my house, watching youtube videos, facebook, and even some Tv. Seriously, why is my life so boring. And I really really want to make money. Like ALOT. I just want to be able to save up my own money and buy all the things I want. I just want all of these, nice accessories. I know i know. You want these things, but are they needs or wants? All of my things are wants. Haha, Such a terrible truth. God I wish I don't turn out to be those super spoiled corrupted kids in the cooperate world that just burns down their dad's life long career and success because they are just too stupid and lack abilities for the company to run well. I wish I don't become one of those people. I want to be self made man someday. I want to start from ground zero, nothing inherited from the family. I want nothing, but an education and a story behind me. I want to start everything for myself, such as buying my own house, own car, own business. I want everything made from me. Not handed to me as if I was on a pedestal. Well I always think about things like this, but honestly I don't know if I will succeed or not. Just have to be positive! NIghts Cheers.

2011/4/14

 I have been so tired these days. I don't know why. Maybe because I exercise everyday and I stay up until very late everyday or soemthing but I feel so tired all the time. How was your day? Mine went pretty well.I had most of my easy classes and in the afternooon I just skated with my friends and enjoyed a good can of Arizona tea. It was pretty good, I like the green tea version of it though, rather than the lemon tea version which I thought was way too sweet. Well I just thought It would be nice to go out with my friends once in a while and skate. I also went out with another friend afterschool and just relaxed with her. It was pretty fun as well, I hope I could do this more and more with her for the rest of the year. I sometimes love the feeling of being tired. Alright, going to bed.

2011/4/13

 Today was pretty fun.I went out with friends to eat dinner and chubby's. then we just relaxed afterwards until around 10 30. That was fun, the grilled chicken leg burger was the bomb. The barbeque sauce along with the nice vegetables and the boneless chicken. It was literally an orgasm in the mouth. I had some fun at the restaurant as well, I just talked with a couple of my buddies and just relaxed while waiting for the food to come. It was a very fun trip today. I also gave a very convincing speech on abortions in expository writing class. It was very fun and very catchy I guess. That was a very fun thing for today as well. I am just glad Wednesday is over because once I am done with this, I am done with the week. Chao, going to sleep.

2011/4/12

 Today was fun as well. I hung out with some friends after school. This is what I do everysingle day after school, hanging out with friends and eating. Today I went to the gym with bill. We hit our chest and triceps pretty hard, doing from bench presses to dumbbell flies to tricep pull downs. It was fun and I cannot wait until my chest and triceps start to get sore tomorrow. It would be the best feeling in the world getting my body sore. I love that kind of feeling. We also downed some protein powder mixed with some milk powder. It was the most gross thing I have never had to drink. That taste of vanilla pondered in my mouth that whole time. That whole time I was out, I had that milk powdery taste in my mouth. It was awful. Well today was a very fun day and tomorrow I am going to buy some chicken breasts for myself so we can start eating healthy and gain some muscle mass. It would be the greatest most awesome thing I have started for myself. Beach body '11, here I come!

2011/4/11

 Today was the first day of the first extra credit for the last quarter. The last long stretch dude! You kept up for two quarters and you have to keep it up for the last one! I know you can do it! Spring break was absolutely terrific. I have hung out with my friends from all over until very late every single day. It was fun, absolutely the times I would remember when I grow up. I think sometimes you have to just enjoy life, and just go out, not think, do stupid things, and then come back regretting it. What is the fun of a life staying in your home all the time being safe and living until very old but have nothing to tell your grandkids? But no, you wouldn't have any grandkids because you would not go out and meet anyone so you would not end up getting married. Why do people measure their life as how long it is, rather than how great it was lived? I think that is a very strong quote by the comedian of Gabriel Iglesias. Very funny guy, he is latino and has many funny stories. I am going to sleep man!